I was recently on the web when an article about cults caught my eye. As a kid growing up in rural Saskatchewan I was unwittingly born into a christian cult started by a man named George Geftakys it was called The Assembly. According to this article I read, all levels of brainwashing were present in the cult which was surprising even to me who was a member till i was old enough to choose otherwise. But I guess I should have known, how else could you get 10 men to live together as bachelors sleeping on bunk beds, doing chores called "stewardships" and getting consequences for doing things incorrectly, your life constantly scrutinized by those you live with everything down to what you do with your "free time" as well as have to listen to a 70 year old woman talking about the sin of masturbation. I know what you're thinking but I was not one of these unfortunate souls. Luckily I just chose to lie to those who asked about me and deceive as many as I could which led to outright rejection of all to do with christianity. This has changed since I think Jesus is a great Grace Factor and one cool dude. While I was on the subject I found a different website devoted solely to "healing" those that were members The Assembly. It said that a lot of the members of the cult "fell away from the Lord" after it was over and it was said because it was through Him they could find greatest healing. I say, what is to heal, do you really want to go back to how "healthy" you were 20 years before you joined. I am grateful to use the experience as a stepping stone in my consciousness development and to take the healthy things from it and use them when I can. For example when I was in British Columbia riding crazy unstarted colts with Brondu we sang hymns to try and relax us, every time we stopped we got bucked off. How great thou art............. then sings my sooooooooooooaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Thump!!!!

It's my Birthday and I feel good. Got a sweet present from my girlfriend Emily, a Ducati motorcycle, some Zenga colgne and soap. Brondu gave me a sweet call and we talked about spooging on a horse the owner of which is a bitch (completely hypotheical of course hee hee hee) Then I'm going to the hotsprings. Anyways hope your day is going as good as mine. Mmmm I smell good.

LOL!! Don't forget the absolute sweet JOY of being human, there is no one I would rather be right now than Josh Vass typing away on his sweet MacBook however there are always those damn trials and tribulations. I'm talking about the beautiful things that make life bitter-sweet, the things that seem to dim the vibratant colors of the world, and make the everpresent JOY seem to fade. What gets me is that living gets in the way of really LIVING!! For example, I changed to a vegetarian diet a year ago, when I did so I was strong healthy and muscular, now not much has changed except I have lost some weight. Now i wish all 3 of my bodies to be healthy but i happen to know that 50% of all change in those 3 bodies is initiated at least by physical workout. So easily solved right, increase protein intake, get a proper eating schedule and hit the gym. RIGHT!! Except then there are the financial implications of getting a pass at the gym, I know i can easily work them out in the next couple of days or weeks but the time in between that how do you let go of the fact you're not doing anything, in other words how do you live your fullest knowing you're not fully living out your highest potential? But forget that for a moment, my question is why are we, or more to point, why am I so reluctant to move forward in my life in the simplest most day-to-day things. Because at the end of the day when you look back, the things that entertained you and that you enjoyed in the moment aren't there, I am left with a sense of non accomplishment, I may have completed and assload of shit that motivated the hell out of me during the day but I always seem to come back to that sense of a gap, some kind of disconnect and disatisfaction with what went on as if it is only just a little off. Now I know Anthony Robbins has created a program that helps a fella deal with all of this stuff and I am inspired by all those that practrice it, Brondu, Ryan you guys are my heros, it's just there is something inside that holds me back from ingaging in those things, I have the ILP kit sitting in front of my dvd player and it never enters. I need a fucking community like you guys to kick me in the ass and get me going. Here's to Zaadz and the hope that someone out there will help keep me accountable to the things I want to do. - do the ILP at least once a week - I LOVE MY LIFE, (anthony robbins, I have started before.... :P) - work out 3 times a week (my gf is a personal trainer so i think that one may be covered) hehe - any advice on how to gain weight on a vegetarian diet, like a meal plan, sweet recipies anything like that would help - donations are appreciated haha - keep up on readings like sweet KDubs work, fingers crossed that abnormal swelling dies down a little I will try and blog on my process over the next days and weeks to come. I sincerely appreciate all the help I can get. May the horse be with you, Josh

Here's a cry to all you creative, non-creative but imaginative, unimaginative but marketing savvy, marketing savvy and creative,... you get the idea, folks. We have a band but not a name if I knew how to add songs to a blog i would. Perhaps if Brondu reads this he can tell me how and then you can listen to some songs to get a better idea of what the band sounds like therefore what name would fit. Anyways any suggestions are welcomed. Thank you all

It seems to me the human body is a tool that we use.  Now this tool can programed for success, in my opinion people like Maxwell Maltz author of Psycho-Psybernetics, and Anthony Robbins and others like them have written programs for how to program your body for success.  However I also know that absolute and relative values have a great part to play in this success.  Simply reaching a goal may in itself not be as great as it is cracked up to be.  For expample if you have to lock in your relative values for a long period of time to achieve the goal the result seems empty because nothing has changed, you are still the same person you were at the start.  The key to me seems to be to have a good solid core of absolute values that you know, and the rest is organizing your relative values so that you are the person you want to be by the time you reach your goal.  Example for B would be getting in with Big Lar but not being able to get done the old Level 2 before we got there.  We had programed our bodies for success and had our absolute values in line but something in our relative values refused to complete the level 2 task.  Anyways run with it......